A Psalm

I arrived back home in Yakima, Washington last night after a full day of travel. As I neared the end of my internship I thought back to the beginning and what was going on in my heart then. In the weeks leading up to moving to Costa Rica I was terrified and I felt distant from God for no apparent reason. It wasn’t until we were on the plane to Costa Rica that God reassured me. For our final intern bible study we were assigned to write a Psalm. Mine is about this experience.

Of Esther, when she was an

EMI intern in Costa Rica. A Psalm.

My God, will you be with me?

Where I am going, will You lead?

or have I turned to my own path;

wanting my own way?

Even when I purposed to serve You;

when I came to a country not my own,

I doubted Your guiding hand.

Was it really You who lead me here?

Fear engulfed me;

the threat of the unknown.

Would I succeed or disappoint You?

I looked for a sign,

any promise to cling to.

When I was already on my way You told me;

on the journey You spoke,

“You are my daughter.”

I listened, but You said no more.

What was this that I could cling to?

You shield me through the unknown.

My failures change nothing.

My successes change nothing.

I am Yours.

As I walk forward,

I am still your daughter.